Omy, din realize i had 37 posts in June, okie now 38 posts. I'm getting more melancholic than ever. haha. I sure got lots of craps man.


And I couldn't believe with my own eyes.
And seriously there're somethings YOU need to see it with your own eyes before jumping to conclusions.
(argh, stop it esther.)



-ok, I couldn't believe i looked that scary, horrible, oh damn! Hope I dun scare anyone of you. Just for laughs.

Can it come back if you pray so? Cross your fingers and say some prayers? Or pluck one eyelash and put it on your fingertip and blow it, hoping it will land somewhere nice? I don't know where I heard this myth somewhere.

But the problem is, there are some things that can never come back to you again no matter how hard you prayed for it. No matter how many fingers you can cross, or how many thousands millions of prayers you recite, or how many eyelashes you pluck until you're eyelashes-less. it's of no use. It's an irreversible change.

oh glad that you understand how i feel. You wanted it so much. So much that the desire is so strong. When it comes, you could not even pluck up the courage and accept it. So why the hell, torture yourself and pray so hard for it then. When it comes to find you, it starts to get stupid. Because you know it's something that you desire, yet you pushed it back, you don't want it.

Back to square one.
Why are there a bountiful of contradictions and dilemmas?
Would the world be better if there's none of this?



thank you girl. (:

couldn't concentrate on studying 6P couse the mind kept drifting.

Mixing and matching,
Twisting and turning,
Hoping and praying,
Dreaming and considering,
Never knowing yet always knowing,
Wanting to, yet not wanting to,
Mixing my heart,
Matching my soul to yours,
Twisting fate with the flick of the wrist,
Turning my life over,
Hoping that it would end,
Praying that it never would stop,
Thinking it was over,
Wishing that it wasn't,
Dreaming of its coming,
Considering letting it steal within
Never knowing if it's true,
Always knowing that it's there.
Wanting to live in the light,
Not wanting the light to come,
The love of another
The dreams of someone close,

Remembering what you used to feel,
Can it come back if you pray so?

oh how glad am i couse one test down, another sickening test to go for tomorlo then it's a small break for our brains.

School bell's ringin! and signifies the ending of school. Suddenly feel so pathetic! ): School fees not paid and mom reprimanded me for asking her to pay for it only when letter comes. Letter come then reality hits me, then i know must pay what. Any fault with that? If letter never comes, how i know my giro is freaking empty. hais, whatever, i can't connect with her no longer. Hence i had to ask my dear friens to send me the problem and ws and had to submit rj to mandy via email.

Thank god, i can still carry out my module selection which is due on this thursday! I think i would stick to the routine of 5 days school since we are having 5 days class now, so why not just continue with the ordeal right. Everytime, it's a struggle to wake up. I am real interested in arts stuff like the arts appreciation module which is real interesting as it even teaches how to pronounce artists' names. (Not that i'm illiterate lah.) And to learn to appreciate art forms like painting and etc. But the sense of uncertainty and insecurity hit me. Ain't really sure what module to pick. Something i'm definitely absolutely sure, - I hate financial planning seriously.

Met up with lychee ( you know who you are.) to home. We bought some finger-food on our way to interchange. Then, i thought of the ramily burger at the pasar malam. Hence, we set forth and settled at one corner to eat our food. Not much appetite though, was feeling restless even when chewing the burger. ):

Very restless.
Mood swings are terrible.
I hate to be gripped by misgivings,
and to be affected by small lil things.

Lost in somewhere.

But i dunno where.

Alot of delegates from different states, ministerial levels, with people from very important status. We have to take note of our demeanor. I felt rather exciting! And at times rather dry and dead especially when they discussing and asking questions! Sometimes, I can't even make out what they're asking at all! And yet the speaker is able to answer with much ease and made me look at him in awe. We almost had no time to eat because although we are doing sai gang, we are still very busy. Only had 15 minutes to eat! So had to rush rush rush rush. And have to usher them in. And some of the delegates so not obedient. We kindly asked them to proceed into the ballroom, still dilly dally talk talk, eat and eat cupcakes. It was a tiring day at the end. However, i can feel my heart pumping being able to be involved in their water week, even though our roles are rather insignificant, which is something so prestigious. Very exciting!

I wanted to read up on SIWW but i failed to do so, alot of distractions lah. Anyway, hope tml will be a good start for those working tml at suntec! Gotta wake real early man. Hope i dun forget anything before i leave home! Though working as mike runners do not need much information, but ohwell la. I'll stay vigilant and see which speaker needs mike and i'll run to the speaker! Hope i have fun, running with mikes.

Commited afew hours onto PP but only done the initial part of it. Argh, how much I hate PP and i would desire to avoid doing PP, that's why the procrastination. Anyway, I'm taking a little break from the stress of doing PP. Gotto read up on SIWW a little, get equipped with some information, lest i make a fool out of myself.

Meanwhile, I was so bored. Got hooked on blogthings. Am having fun! But I forgot to eat my lunch. Or rather purposely missed my lunch. Ohwell. I'm going to get my dinner soon. I'm starving. Granny said I lost afew kilos here and there. Did i?! Maybe badminton for 2 days consecutively, huge volume of sweat out does help. Maybe I didn't get thinner, perhaps, much more toned. LOL. ok forget it.

new products from the body shop! It's a lotion with self tanning ingredients. It's so tempting because with it, you don't have to suffer from sun burnts and unbalanced skin tone and very obvious difference in tanlines. You can tan it indoors, so cool lah! Nowadays, technology is so advanced. Hmm.

It's a abit gloomy monday over here. Not much of monday blues because there's no school for us! But there's the impending Singapore International Water Week which we would be involved in. We would be making use of the 1 week holidays to take part in this water week. Glad that the arduous packing is all over!

Discipline has to be put in place lest my mind starts to wander and digress from what I should be doing. I drew up a to-do list for myself. Cross my fingers that I would complete them by the end of the day. First priority is PP, (how i wish to avoid this.). Second priority is reading up on SIWW issues. Third priority is blog. And last but not least, the most unimportant thing is to do chores; hang clothes. -___-. I hate housework to the core. Except cooking, but you wash and clear up can?

As you can see, i've already messed up the order of to-do list! I'm supposed to do PP report now! Ahh. Discipline.

When the night has come

And the land is dark

And the moon is the only light we'll see

No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid

Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me,

oh now now stand by me

Stand by me, stand by me

Today rupublicans arrived at suntec convention centre to attend Singapore International Water Week's briefing. After a round of briefing, we finally got down to duty instantly for packers. And i must packers say fab job, pat on the back.

We had a rather limited space to do all the packing. And it was a truckload of packing to do. Imagine 1200 bags. And 700 folders. In total we finished 1900 door gifts. All I could say was that it was very tedious and tiring. Keep repeating the same action over and over again.

Their catered lunch was buffet. What a beautiful picture they painted for us. We had such high hopes for buffet. But, the greater your hopes, the bigger your disappointment. Indeed, they had such an unique buffet laid for us. A 2 course vegetarian buffet. We ate abit then went to subway to eat instead which supposed would be more filling for us.

And we passed by this yami yoghurt, it was really nice blend of ice cream and yoghurt. Packing was such a tiring chore. I will never be a packer again. All we brought back was aching backs, blistered hands and some cuts. And smth worth mentioning-- good team work.

):

We almost thought we couldn't finish packing and might have to stay back. But oh glad, we were a bunch of efficient people.

I had a dream we went away,
Left this city for a day,
You took me southwards on a plane,
And showed me spain or somewhere.
But in reality your,
Not so keen to show me anything,
And I thought you liked me.

Hey show some love,You aint so tough,
Come fill my little world,
Right up,
Right up.

I was telling smth hilarious to denise hours ago in class.

If you are a frequent listener of 987 FM then you would be familiar with their "soundtrack of the day" morning show. They will supply the theme and you dedicate a song via sms/call up. And the theme that i told denise was, "which soundtrack would you recall when you reach your workplace". And so this person smsed in and said that he would choose, "no one" from alicia keys. Precisely, when he arrived at work, he's always that early bird. (But he didn't catch that worm.) No one was there except him. So, "no one, no one, no one ho ohohoh, you're getting away with what i'm feeling." Poor bird. Another one was this lady who smsed in to pick her soundtrack. The theme was, "what's the soundtrack that you would be reminded of when it rains." Alright, maybe rihanna's Umbrella still sounds reasonable. But, "touch my body"?!

And that caused denise to roll on the floor laughing with her cheeks flushed. It feels happy to make people laugh.









With our O2 skin products selling like hotcakes so hot and competition so tight, so close! How can I not feel the temperature raising among all the potential salespersons! Yeah, I think my body system gotten abit heaty, that zit that i popped was reborn again!









2 days of sales competition finally came to a close today. Let's all give ourselves a big pat on the back. We all did a great job! But i was disappointed with the results; that we didn't win. Partly because, the prizes were so attractive! But primarily, was because i feel we all put in a great deal of effort in it, put in all our heart and soul. Though we might not really be equipped with the sufficient product knowledge and not succumb to pressure/stress by having both energy-drainin modules for that 2 days, tests for that 2 days.

We even bought products from our own class! We even went ecstatic when we heard mandy announcing to us that we were 3rd, very near to being the 2nd. We were so motivated and joyous after that. We even felt that we generated quite a large volume of sales and we stand a high chance of winning! Even called victor to check the results. So anxious about it.

After test ended, shrills, screams and shouts were heard from the opposite class of us. We thought what happened sia! Oh, so they are the best sales team loh. Aww, i felt my heart sinking. Especially after screwing up the test. Yeah, all this are part and parcel though. We don't always need to win to prove anything right? At least when i see the facial masks that i bought, my mind would be flooded with memories of how we did it as a class when we have sucha cramped schedule for 2 days. E65N rocks!

(haha, ok, i guess abit corny.)

I just reformatted my laptop and I hate vista.
laptop is so empty without songs!
And i almost fall asleep doing rj, luckily my loveys!
They send me songs and songs and songs, and it perked me up la.
Thanks kimchi and aussie michee.
I just wanna dedicate this post to them, for sending songs.
For being there when i need songs! haha.
So nice of them, come come a kiss and a hug and a hit on the butt.
anyway, Music has been an integral part of me.
I can't live without it. I think life would just be very bland without rhythm, beats and melodies.
And of course, lovelies thanks.
(:
loves.

sales paper and pen ut2 ended, leaving my right hand shaking.
Imagine after so long, we have not touched a pen and start to write with it!
I definitely cherish the time when we will able to do it online.
Luckily we have our paper resources which we went to photocopy.
and you bitch, irritated me with your f-up attitude.
and wtheck is wrong with you bitch.

Ah, was damn freaking restless and tired.
Today's schedule was so cramped.
We are like so busy,
with sales competition, ut2 and 2days of sales competition,
what's more, we having law module which is even more stressin'.
Events branding ut2 starts right after sales ut2.
And shoots, i haven't even dl the 6Ps.
Sigh, tired.

I believe we all do comprehend the fact tht when things pile up, fill up your mind,
you just want to stay laid back and give up !
I'm feeling the tension and lethargicity of cramped schedule.
Hate having to squeeze tasks into time slots,
to multi task, hate to stress, hate to feel tired, hate to be nagged when i'm damn tired.
It's like the brain and body is going into the stage of malfunction.
But you can't slack, you can't feel very busy.
No extremes.
Plus,
every time i wake up, my mind is further attacked by temptations.
"aiya, dun go school la, skip, pon. Sleep abit more la, very tired leh..."
My brain and heart gets weaker each time i prepare for sch!
Slack too much, i will feel i'm wasting time and not doing smth productive.
Too busy, i will feel stressed out!
Ah,
I will die in this dilemma god.
Tell me where's the right balance .

I feel like skipping Raelene's lessons,
but I can't do it anymore. Simply becos,
I had alr skipped twice of her lessons.
Recently temptations has gotten into me, as long as there's a perpetrator..
Someone, anyone to start...
Someone to prompt, to initiate..
"anyone wanna pon?"
I guessed I might just fall right into the trap!
owell, i'm trying hard not to succumb to temptations.
Now my body starts to ache,
my right hand starts to shake and,
blisters are sprouting from my soles.

Had a great time playing badminton!
It has been such long moon years since I started to swing the racket!
It was a fantastic workout too,
felt much more healthier too, and
the skin feels much cleaner I guess,
all the impurities and dirts and everything are dispelled from the body system,
as sweat!
We initiated playing doubles with 2 boys.
And it was really fun.
Behind the court that we were playing, there're enthu social dancers,
dancing joyously to the music.
It suddenly crossed my mind;
life like this is rather meaningful.
You don't just go home and sleep and eat/bathe /etc.
At least you exercise, you get to meet and socialize with other people,
and I understood the meaning when if you wanna have fun,
let's have fun together!
Just a pity we didn't exchange contacts for further games like this!
We aren't regular players anyway.
But it has been sucha long time I had such an enjoyable and fab game.
Badminton loves!

Today's is kimchi birthday!
So hereby, presenting her me and sue's heartfelt birthday greetings to her!
Being 18 years old is already a very grand thing alr girl,
so don't take your mom's 'cold water' to heart okie!
Me and sue are still stuck at 17 years old!
So many things we can't do!
Like we can't bet on numbers; 4D, toto and whatsoever.
And clubbing? Though I'm not too sure how's like to club,
but it sure does sound exciting to club till the sunrise.
Well, at least see how people dance on the dance floor.
And i'm utmost looking forward towards 18,
one step nearer to more freedom.

Right now, me and sue are at the library, slacking.(that's me.)
I am enjoying my oreo cheese cake and summer peach drink.
While enjoying this serenity,
someone starts to flaunt his/her talent of playing the piano.
It was actually rather soothing.
Then it started to twist.
Into something horrible, torturous,
as if he/she is venting his frustrations onto the piano.
And it's rather irritating for people who want to enjoy the serenity in the library.

Anyway, will be having New York new york later at lot1 with kimchi.
We shall witness their "exceptionally good" service and food.
(:

Somehow I agree that,



Uncertainty is better than knowing the truth.










Had supper with my TBS colleagues at Newton circle food centre.
We had tantalizing seafood dishes being served to us.
Chilli/black pepper crabs, sambal stingray, cereal prawns, tom yum soup and etc.
I would say their service is not that bad and it's fast. Within mins, food is on the table.
I just munched on cereal prawns and some mini buns.
No pictures though.

Am studying for UT2. (actually not really as you can see me typing this post.)
Couldn't really concentrate studying for UT2 la. 6Ps aren't that helpful sometimes.
Finally tml school reopens for EVERYBUDDY! (:
Guess it's busy busy busy time.
And the weather now is so scorching hot, thought of dropping by library to study,
but nah.
Feel like swimming,
anyone? (:

The Bottom Line
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In Detail
Take a good long look in the mirror and remind yourself that while you might not be the hottest person on earth, you are definitely something special -- especially in the eyes of the people who love you. Having a healthy level of confidence is more important than having a conventionally attractive outer shell. After all, it's just a shell. The magnetic energy you create when you believe in yourself is undeniable. Boost your ego, and you'll see proof of this today.

Went to do our presentation on today's law module in the library which we believed to be a better atmosphere for us to do our work more effectively. However, we could not really complete our work on time though.

Am not gonna enjoy thursday and friday because it's law and enterprise module, both energy-draining modules. Big boo. Plus, I have to rush to work after that and tolerate silly customers.

Ok, did i mention we have 24 slides?

Humans are also notoriously complex.

-___- turn-off.

1,2,3 whisky!

a surfeit of sugar intakes.

Was reading the western oriental mag and it mentions all the panoramic and breathtaking sights of different parts of the world.

I think i would love travelling around the world with lovables one day.
And oh-so-surprise, my bitchy michee would love to stay in Australia and upgrade to an Aussie lass! I would love to join her man. Eating out at Aust. would be burning our pocket holes. Aye, must save up to go Aust. la bitchy michee.

In the mag, i was amazed. I was tempted. All the pictures and descriptions in the mag were beckoning and tempting me. I want a getaway to Bali right away. There's this hot spot which is like cafe in the morning and in the night, it metamorphes into a dance floor for club-lovers who wish to club till sunrise.

It sure does sound like Dee's business idea!

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speaking of our team's business idea, hmm.
Don't remind me the progress of it.
Because it's a happy wednesday.

Had truckloads of fun and laughing moments with my lovables, chilling at s'bucks.
It's a fantastic time to chill, relax.
Time really slows down, and it's so relaxing to sit at that spot.
You get to see people walking by, cars zooming past and everything.
And with the breeze, blowing kisses onto our faces. oooh.

All the laughing erased all the unhappy thoughts. Dun care what's the unhappy thoughts, unhappy stuffs sometimes aren't worth the mention. I was laughing so heartily. I even felt i was being too gabby! Oh so glad, time was passing so slow like a tortoise. Weather was perfect. Everything was oh-so-nice. That's why i am loving chill-outs man. Rock on!

On the way home by lrt, i was entertained by some cranky little boys. It was so hilarious la.





Oh tml got school.

No school for me tml, the second time I skipped Raelene's lesson.
Now you can see a smile on my face.
It's rather tiring to make the brain function for the whole day, generating ideas/solutions for problem statements. It's also traumatizing la for the brain when we have to think right on that spot! But still role play is usually a better choice than presentations!

Skipping school because i'm going for my medical appt. This's a window of opportunity and I grabbed it! It's a great chance for me to recuperate.
Plus, going out to chill with lovables tml. ok, gonna feast and pamper myself with foooooooood.

I think I should have never entertained the thoughts of depending on my brother to bring me out to makan and chill.

I think all my cravings shall be put aside first. He himself is "indulging" in the koka seafood cup noodle, he thinks it's very economic, cheap and delicious. My heart sank to the bottomless pit alr lah.

Ohwell, that's my brother.
I still love my brother.
The brother that crapped, played with us and joked like a kiddo/idiot.
(:

Suddenly, the drive I used to possess was disappeared into thin air. Yeap, can you imagine having only 1 week of hols while some others have 2 weeks of it? I cannot. Yeah, have been lamenting about this stupid issue.

My soul is still in holiday mood, while my physical body is already drained out of energy, trying to keep up with the pace in the real world. It's hard to balance the soul and body in different worlds you know?

Just like how difficult it's to communicate with a person whose character is world's apart from yours. Terrible. Argh. I'm feeling so damn irritated for no reason man. I feel like tearing up paper, feel like screaming and feel like crying, for no rhyme/reason.

Stress lah stress, creating havoc in my mind, making me sound like a lunatic. Randomly, feeling very emo for nothing, feeling that i'm nothing and i've nothing, nothing-but weaknesses. Coffee bean lah. I'm craving for blended drinks, chocolates, almond cream, fondue, sweets, desserts, cheesecakes and apple strudels.

Bring me out brother, pls!

Alright, it's the "holidays". But we are coming back for make-up lessons. We're having sales management module. We expected Mandy to be here. But erm, Anthony chew came. He chewed all our brain cells up. Every one of our brain cells. And he promised to go easy on us since it's the "holidays". big liar. Only 1 team will get A, 2 teams get Bs and 1 team getting C. ohwell, we'll see. My face, the ears, the neck are feeling alil feverish because of getting too nervous during presentation. It's so tough to imagine a' chew as mandy.

Recently, I think I have been spending out of budget. !! When did I have a budget!? I just spend, and when I feel that I have been spending quite alot, I reminded myself to restrain abit, don't look at clothes, don't even try touching the clothes. Ohwell, the time will come when I will really stop spending on unnecessities is when I see this- "$0." Or around 5 bucks then the fear and insecurities set in. It's only when we lose something then we realize how much we need them, how much they mean to us, how we wish we could have treated them better and etc.

Back to spending, I just spent $88, plus Mum's sunglasses= $98. Wo, the moment she heard that I will be forking the amount alone, she allowed me to buy my new pair of glasses! And finally I won't have to tire my eyes by forcing it to see things clearer. And I'm going to collect my glasses this thursday.

yeap, thanks guys for your thoughtful reminder that my blog's dying. Previously I was having some minor problem with internet explorer hence the lack of updates!

Because, I was having much fun this month, really truckloads of fun and laughter hence summarize all the fun moments I had.

Both the sentosa trips with E65N lovables were really truckloads of fun, laughter and craziness. The second round; more people turned up, which is a good thing! Though some people were late! Oh well, haha, as usual, i think we all are quite cam-whoric. Everywhere we go, we took pictures! I think we loved the SILOSO beach logo because we never failed to take pictures, climb up and down like kids on the alphabets! But the weather was not that sunny though on the second trip to sentosa. It was more of leisure time, instead of playing time. But, still it was yeah, FUN! Dinner was best because it was sakae sushi buffet! BUFFET! means you can eat all you want! I totally enjoyed the trips to sentosa with all of my babies in E65N.

I remembered the time I went to raffles city with weishan- she brought me to Fairmont washroom. Ha, and the next moment, i'm booking into Fairmont for a day's stay there with my family and cousin! And I would definitely love to come back into the arms of Fairmont! The lady at the check in area really left a long-lasting impression on me. The way she treated the customers, she was bowing all the way down and speaking in a oh-so-damn-sweet-n-lovely tone of hers. Omy, the way she speaks is just so demure and oh so ladylike. So sweeeeeeeet. Oh, back to Fairmont. The bathroom makes me WOW. It was a white bathtub and the vinchy shower head from the ceiling wall. And just the thought of water lavishing on top, from the shower head to the toe makes me so happy. The bed is so comfy and soft that i ran and hopped onto the bed w/o hurting myself at all! And there's a balcony with its scenic view. And i must say the bathroom is a great place to let your hair down, relax, chill and is definitely therapeutic. I even brought along my bath lily! I stayed in the bathtub for around 1 hour, dipping myself in the bathtub, it was so relaxing and the feeling of having nothing to worry, everything is behind your back, such a carefree day! Did I mention the high tea buffet was at 70th storey? The part when you take the lift, the feeling of the air pressure certainly is exciting. The high tea buffet offers tantalizing food, and i'm still craving for that white choc fondue with marsmallow. Marvellous!

Back to our own place, I am stil craving for food. So, i had my green tea mcflurry for the 7th time. That satisfaction in the mouth when I finished every bit of the ice cream. All these, -
fun, laughter, carefree moments, enjoyment, is what I call LIFE.