My vision reduced. I thought it was just for awhile and i'll be fine after shutting my eyes. To my dismay, when i woke up on a "bed", i thought it was just a terrible nightmare. However, i could feel the pain on my upper-lip. And the incessant pain that's throbbing on my head. I woke up, really woke up, and found myself lying on a bed, in the ambulance car. I was wheeled into another bed, awaiting for doctors' examination. This time, it was too real and it was the worst case scenario. I didn't take my medicine regularly again, and didn't have sufficient rest and that triggered my fits, and i think when i fell, i hit and thus a cut on my lip. I think i really bled alot because the front part of my tee-shirt was filled with blood.

Whilst lying on the bed in hospital, i was still glad, because the last thing i did before i fell was editing my poster. I completed that and then i fell. Plus, i wanted to attend my nephew's full month birthday on that very day my attack came on. I had to give it a miss definitely. Of course, the lip area had to be stiched. Definitely, the lip area was given the jab, but i could feel the stiching process that's going through my lip. I couldn't laugh as loud or as big as usual and my speaking is abit weird, i hope it's just temporary though. It's really a lesson for me to learn; to learn to take my medicine regularly. I would still be going back to hospital to unstich on my bday though.

No doubt this misfortune has befallen onto me, at some point in time, I still feel that it's a blessing in disguise. I had my poster completed before I had the attack, I have more plushies now after I was admitted into hospital, more tonics and my little brother serving me drinks. That's why people say, love your parents. I certainly caused their grey hairs to turn into white hairs. Mum accompanied me in hospital for 2 days, Dad was worried too. Everyone was good. Especially the moment when almost everyone came and visited me the day i was about to be discharged, they gave me plushies and tonics. It was at that moment I thought that the misfortune was somewhat a blessing.

Despite this misfortune, i still headed to school for poster presentation definitely. I'm glad that it's over, CE and PP(not totally over though), albeit it's over, the poster presentation still weighing on my mind and these days I've have drinking water, taking medicine and sleeping like a pig. I promise to be good. I thank you all who have expressed your concern. I'm much better albeit the headache and the lip area and ulcers are almost killing me. Sigh, i wished I could turn back the hands of clock and wish that this misfortune would not have happened and not caused much worry. (Yeah, people often want to turn back time and wish that this(shit) and that(shit) would not have happened!)

People often say after a misfortune, something good will happen. And i'm turning 18 soon. You know what i'm driving at..

It started to pitter patter loudly after I entered the sheltered areas of my home grounds and was gladdened by the fact that the rain didn't shower its droplets on me. And I'm starting to adore such weather. Lovely rain, not thunderstorms, with occasional breeze and the smell of the rain. JIVE FIESTA meeting with E65L people sort of ended peacefully, albeit things got quite ugly in the middle but it was sunshine after the thunderstorm. After joining in the meeting, it definitely made one realize that it ain't that easy peasy to be an organizer and it really requires everyone's effort.

Suddenly, got sick of doing republic journal. Holidays are round the corner but it's not getting me anywhere real excited because there're more things to be done for the holidays. Like poster assessment, Jive fiesta things, art project. At least there's light at the end of the tunnel because there would be the upcoming Pub-hops with 65N clique. Oh, and rainy days like this just make me wanna snooze and snuggle in my blanket with my rabbit, but there seems to be so many things to be completed at hand. Rainy days Rainy days Rainy days.

I'm sick of routines.
I want night safari and halloween.

He says A. She says B. I donno who's telling the truth. But, I know one of them is definitely faking it. But, how come I became the one faking it? What's wrong with people ah?

Calculations suck big time. Nerves are always nervous when it comes to calculation. I stumbled at the first question. Did wrong calculations, thought my green calculator would bring me luck. Luck shit. I'm so frustrated, calculations sucks sucks sucks sucks. So not looking forward to mgt acct lesson. It's gonna be full of calculations that before you enter the classroom, it's gonna drown you, gonna make you breathless, gonna kill you to bits and pieces and gonna blind you. Why let us take such scary module! Fuck calculations. Looks like my green calculation didn't bestow me with the perceived luck. Got to get a red one already. Sigh. I need retail therapy tremendously. Cannot go night safari already! Ahhh. Smelly friday, heck friday, un-friday, pigass friday, I want dslr.

Italian ocean catch was absolutely nice and very filling, with the very huge juicy thick sausage, creamy dory with the cream sauce, sphagatti and toasted bread with cheese, it was the best ever, value for money breakfast I've eaten in republic. No sight of the eyebrow, with thick thick foundation store manager. Many of my friends ordered ocean catch too, I thought order in bulk should be cheaper, but the new manager I supposed, didn't give in despite the many orders. Nonetheless, food was value for money and service was fast enough, what's more to ask for!

Presentation for event logistics was cute. Only one person had to present, while the rest answered questions and class was much more lively definitely, but, I seemed to wake up late much more times too. Presentations are getting smoother. but, my alarm clocks are cranky because they doesn't seem to ring. I miss retail therapy now, craving for it now, now, now. Oh, and late night showers are nice and cuddling me to sleep, as I listen to 'lullaby' on my zen x-fi.

Tomorrow is arts appreciation, yay. I want to secure my As! Tomorrow is also mgt acct, ahh, dread it. I'm gonna bring my green good luck calculator, good luck tomolo easy peasy calculation simple maths pls, i want happy fridays.

I've been pretty restless and sleepy these days, must be the sleepy bug that has caught me. Real sleepy during presentations and on mrt rides. The eyes were shutting down, but the brain was telling otherwise. This could jolly well be one of the pre-menstrual symptoms; hot flushes and tiredness, argh, pms sucks. And these could probably be the period when I loathed being a girl.

Retail therapy, is the time when I feel good being a girl, definitely. So much more variety of clothings as compared to the guys, and I'm hooked on cotton on! Yikes! Cotton-on addiction is overwhelming me. Now, i'm straining my brain to contemplate, to think of what to type next because I've run out of stuff to say. I'm hungry. I don't like numbers and calculations seriously. I'm really restless but my body doesn't wanna rest. I wanna get a DSLR soon. I m thirsty. Oh, i'm so irritated with my alarm, doesn't seem to function, and caused me to wake up late. If they could just get our attendance through our entrance of republic, it would be so much better. This is because by the time we reached the class, we would be so late already ah.

Oh titima and gina had their birthday surprises by E65N again of course! But this time, we had the whole of E65Nians at E66F and our noises were overwhelming but such birthday surprises are really enjoyable and brighten up blue days. ! Now, the room is gloomy, that it made me feel like i'm in lalalalalalalalala land.

Sunday was awesome. Mum got me new shoes, but it was like she was coerced into it. Brother got me the zen x-fi and now i've songs to accompany for long train rides. New samsung phone, but it doesn't prove to have much funtionability. Just because it was new, and so i decided to get it. Out with the old, in with the new. Novelty rules. And i started haolian to my little brother and claimed that I would share my x-fi with him. Hmm, maybe not! hahaha.

Monday was fine too, Class started with a relief facilitator who doesn't seem to let students finish the talking and she had all the facial expressions on her face. Bitched about her on msn.
But we were the winner of the activity during meeting 2, so we didn't have to do the slides. Hurray.
We are the judges. But the other teams will be ganging up to ask the judges unrelated questions, anything under the sky.

What is this for man!

PP report is approved, like finally. Now, the report is done, here comes the poster, and I'm still quite at a loss about what to include inside. After poster, comes assessment. October and November are busy months, ! , with professional profiling and tests to manage. Stress and time management comes handy here.

However, shall still chill and enjoy myself in the midst of all these chaos and chores and homework and tests and reports. Been feeling good this days, the blessings of a singleton maybe. And after siww pay comes in, it's gonna be another round of shopping. It's a long delay already. Oh ya, not forgetting my arts project and jive fiesta. Now, i have cravings for starbucks frappucinos.

Was 'stuck' in school because I'm at a loss of what to do. To head for home, or to have dinner? After doing the final amendments of pp and much considerations, i've decided to have dinner with my cousin michelle. Usual long john silver dinner and I think(not think, it's sure) we are both in love with green and frog plushies, like ahh. Suddenly, she became matured overnight, and asked me to spend less on cotton on, cos she thinks it hurts my pocket. I think her words fell on deaf ears. It's not gonna work for me when i'm not cash-strapped, though I should restrain myself from spending. Well, at least it keeps me happy for the day.

It's bad to laugh at people, you know.

8)

Holly polly. Brother's getting me the zen x-fi. Though I really yearn for ipod nano, but no fish, meat also not bad. There's nothing much more to bargain or grumble about. I've been happy these few days. And it feels good. I hope you are all happy people too.

Raining seems to make me spend more, not on buying brolly though, but because of taking taxi to woodlands interchange with my clique, though you can say it's just a stone's throw away from school and we can scrimp and save more if we walk, and it's important that we exercise 3 times a day, ya ya ya. Humans tend to succumb to temptations, especially so when 4 people cab together. Each person pays less than a dollar, which is equivalent to us taking public transport.

That aside, seriously temptations are bad. Shopping, girls don't stop, and will not stop and I don't wanna stop too. I was with Sue at Cotton on, there were new clothes! I think I will go for another round of shopping when siww pay comes. Bloody siww. Anyway, I had dinner with cousin angie, and talked, chatted and laughed. I think I talked and blabbered a lot, but it's okay, we had our laughs. Suddenly realized, people at the food court all looked so unfamiliar to me, like strangers. Well, of course they are all strangers, but it's that fierce kind of strangers, or weird. I donno why i feel this way, but it's just a random feeling. Just weird ah peks. 'Shopping' at supermarket for a round and home we go.

On a side note, I'm starting to see a gleam of light at the end of the tunnel, hopefully. Trying to cut down on B-syndrome.

Simplicity is love.

Big green boxes full of products, and I was packing them, pricing them with my colleagues. It gets me on nerves when the big stock day arrives, with mountains and mountains of products to pack and price, and indeed it's exasperating because it seemed as if the stocks never seem to cease. But lucky me, today is not that scary, but I think my bones are weak, because it's aching and it's because I didn't practise the skills when carrying heavy objects. Sometimes, I worry, worry that it's kidney stones.

This morning, I woke up on my bed, touched my tummy. And realized there was this hard thing in my tummy. I feared for the worst, because I always drink water at night, thinking it would be sufficient to cover the days when I don't drink substantial amount of water. In the end, I always hold my bladder longer than it should, and sometimes I get so lazy to wake up. I don't want stones in my tummy. I should get a water bottle real soon!

My lovely class have always been noisy and happy and laughing. Especially when we take the elevator together. We talked loudly like we own the lift. But, I like them happy and noisy. Feel the warmth and the noisy noisy feeling makes life much more enjoyable. Just like making fun of RoseMary, seeing her run cute-ly today. You should have seen her run, chasing after denise. Oh boy, can she really RUN!

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Hohay! E65N birthday surprise again! This time, the birthday surprise belongs to christo who must have a splashing good time on sunday. As usual, the sweet E65N intends to throw a surprise for christo and as usual, all the secrecy, excitement and screams. And I must say, all the surprises that we prepared are all well done. Pat on the back people, how many birthday surprises have we held for our E65N-ians ah.

Christo was rather shy at the start, but I guess he has got nothing to lose and this guy has got the packs to show and so in the end, with all the agressive coaxing, HE STRIPPED. Just the top. Haha, video is available at timothy's blog. Screams and clapping filled the classroom, gosh! And of course, christo has got his special three layered waffle, filled with bananas, brownies and ice cream and of course all the love from all of us. hoho.

E65N never fails to crack me up with all the nonsense we have, speech lah, surprises, strip, dance, everything we could think of, yeah, XOXO loves. We could start a birthday events management class.

COOL.

If you know the world's coming to an end on 31st december 2008, how would you spend the remaining time you have left?

Class ended early for arts appreciation and hohay ! met up with mabel, zoey, lychee and timothy for dinner at swensen. We thought we could make the cut for the student's deal which would end soon, before 5.30. After we went in the restaurant, we reconfirmed with the waiter and he said we were entitled to student's meal. So, we happily looked through the menu, all hungry little kids. To our dismay, the trainee waiter came back and told us that it has already ended, no more student's meal. Our faces changed and we even thought of leaving the restaurant, cos we only had their water. But, yeah, ego first, pride first, face first. We stayed on and decided to go ahead with eating at swensen. Next time, try eating at swensen again, you might get a free deal, although we had no student meal just now.

Shopping was cooooooooool just now, because I finally bought something home and I seriously need to pack my clothes in the closet because it's like a mess. How come parents are so good at nagging away ! oh, my mum's every day routine. At least nag one time in the day. I think everyone is happy today, because we had our fill at swensen and girls had their shopping done. Everyone's happy happy happy.

I feel good today.

Sudden craving for milk again,
especially my meiji strawberry milk.
I want shopping.
I want to watch horror movies.
I want to sit aeroplane and fly to thailand.
I want holidays
I want a DSLR.
I want my father as full-time chaffeur.
I want ipod nano.
I want mineral makeup.
I want bags.
I want shoes.
I want ice cream.
I want new wallet with alot of notes in side.
I want rain and wind.
I want frappucinos.

It's riddles that are nerve-wrecking, but it's irritating fun.
http://www.weffriddles.com/eng.html

stuck stuck stuck, i'll continue again.