Indeed, when the right ends up wrong. It leaves people wondering whether or not should a person do the correct things. People ponder, how come when I do the right things- and it ended up to be wrong in the end. Yesterday, I was at the popular and shopped at popular with a nice friend who wouldn't help me take a basket I bought from Popular. I chanced upon this book- "TGIF". Ahh, I forgot the title, only remember the initials. I saw this title: When the right ends up wrong. Yes, I think most of us experienced it before. When the right ends up wrong, often bad outcomes appear. In that book- there's a sentence. When such bad outcomes appear, you just hope that God gives you the grace to accept the bad outcomes and ..... - I love the books at Popular.

I always like the lunar new year. Mama buys me new clothes to add on to my boring wardrobe. Mama buys me new shoes too and yesterday she bought me and small e, new bedsheets and pillow casings. Green one for me and I donno why my brother likes pink all of a sudden. Oh well, this coming new year, I'm so gonna enjoy the colors of my bed. It might be too bright that I can't sleep or too excited, to meet my darlings and to meet those red packets and to meet my Godma and to meet my Godbrothers and to meet people and say Gong Xi Fa Cai, Hong bao Yi Ge Lai. And I bought a cheongsam for this coming chinese new year. Donno why I did, but--I jus did! Oh. Well.

And alright baby, the shioking 10 weeks holidays are running to me. Still--2 more days of school. I just felt like skipping school upon waiting for this last lap of school. But seriously some faci are nice to just let us relax during their last lessons. Aaron was really nice. He treated us to some food. Nothing much, but the thought was so there. We didn't had to really force him into treating us. Haris was even better! Replay the scene for thurs and fri pls. Class is going clubbing this week. Should i even try to head out for some fun. Hmm. Arghh, I so wanna have fun! =/

Oh yeah, kboxing session was extremely fun and lots of fun singing and shouting. Happy in exchange for a grade was rather worth it. Never felt so high before, perhaps I have not been going to kbox that often already. But that monday was really enjoyable with my sch mates.

And I think perhaps too much of singing along and shouting, my throat could not take it anymore. My throat has started to fight back and I had no choice but to buy mini cough syrup and panadol pills to pop into mouth. And the feeling of being sick in school just makes me feel so lethargic. And I feel so much to visit the doctor and get well like immediately. But alas, all the clinics are closed and reopened at 6.30 or later. I reached my place at ard 4.40. I couldn't possibly walk around my neighbourhood. So tempted, so I went to have classic manicure.

Instead of visiting doctor, I went to visit manicurist. And here am I back at home, drinking lots of water and popping a panadol pill, hoping fever bug go away soon like now, and also admiring at my barbie-like pink nails.

Oh 'moderation' has been sucha hot topic in republic. Damn. Now many of the Ds, Es and Fs are here to rock and party. That aside- 10am might be a good time to head for sch, I like. Life of a Year 3 seemed rather daunting. More new rules, More new friends coming up.

Today has been a beautiful Sunday. I'm feeling good today, not because I did well in UT3, pathetically not the case, but because I did some mini exercise. Though it's nothing much, but it's a good start isn't it? Maybe next time, I'll try jogs and runs. I need exercise or Swimming, suddenly I missed those days where we had physical exercise. Sweat out Sweat out.

Missed my bitch, managed to persuade her to go granny's house. We went the market for some walk, bought some new year's stuff and ate some food. Had a jolly good laughing time back at granny's place. She juz started to laugh randomly in the kitchen when I said Don't try to run away. I didn't know wat happened so i laughed so hard too. OH- I thought how nice she was, by putting the bowls and etc in the sink. So- she wanted Me to wash their dirty bowls! So she wanted to put all the bowls in the sink for me to wash and wanted to strike the trying-to-run-away pose. But she was too slow and was stopped by me.

Laughter is the best medicine.

Bad thing, He poured cold water on me. Happy first day of 2009 is abit thwarted by dad's rantings on me. Good thing, I'm back to the green society with my friends, which I have missed so much. I missed all the laughing with them that could pack all whatever unhappy affairs and throw into the bin.

I knew he wouldn't give me the support I wanted from him. Yaya, he had my interests at heart. I knew it, crystal clear. But all I wanted is his maybe 70% of his support. And not 100% of his stress, that I brought it to work- Thinking how should I even open my mouth and bring it up to his lips again. And Am here picturing more of his rantings slashed on me. It's not as if I'm doing it my way, not as if I'm going over his line. All his rantings are unwelcomed on this supposedly happy 09's first day. And I returned back to him my silence amidst all the noise.

Another Good thing to remind myself- I bought myself pampering goods.
It's time, I start to do up new year's resolutions, though some people said such resolutions are meant to be broken. But, I feel quite empty up there in my brain. I gotta do some goal-setting, realistic ones, so my mind could function, at least my little sampan has got some direction. Whatever unhappy or unfulfilled or things that left us reeling in regrets should be shredded into strips because 08' affairs are so yesteryear. 09' is a brand new, fresh piece of paper.

I see the phrase, small things come from big packages from toto. She is small-sized, but within her, she's so much stronger and seems like the only able pillar of her family. God Bless Her.