Bad thing, He poured cold water on me. Happy first day of 2009 is abit thwarted by dad's rantings on me. Good thing, I'm back to the green society with my friends, which I have missed so much. I missed all the laughing with them that could pack all whatever unhappy affairs and throw into the bin.

I knew he wouldn't give me the support I wanted from him. Yaya, he had my interests at heart. I knew it, crystal clear. But all I wanted is his maybe 70% of his support. And not 100% of his stress, that I brought it to work- Thinking how should I even open my mouth and bring it up to his lips again. And Am here picturing more of his rantings slashed on me. It's not as if I'm doing it my way, not as if I'm going over his line. All his rantings are unwelcomed on this supposedly happy 09's first day. And I returned back to him my silence amidst all the noise.

Another Good thing to remind myself- I bought myself pampering goods.
It's time, I start to do up new year's resolutions, though some people said such resolutions are meant to be broken. But, I feel quite empty up there in my brain. I gotta do some goal-setting, realistic ones, so my mind could function, at least my little sampan has got some direction. Whatever unhappy or unfulfilled or things that left us reeling in regrets should be shredded into strips because 08' affairs are so yesteryear. 09' is a brand new, fresh piece of paper.

I see the phrase, small things come from big packages from toto. She is small-sized, but within her, she's so much stronger and seems like the only able pillar of her family. God Bless Her.